(WARNING)A peak into my brain.
I feel strange. Like my body isn’t here. I’m crosseyed.
Tired is the word for it.
Today wasn’t bad, or good.
It just was. And happened without me having any say.
Life is weird today. Everything feels blank.
Sound, vision, feeling. I’m not sad right now- but…
Its like I’m unconscious while awake.
I really need sleep.
My head feels strange.
Putting things like this on tumblr is pathetic.
I should stop. This has become a place for word vomit.
Uh oh, my thoughts are leaking out…. *sigh*
Maybe I should go with it… I’ve become careless.
Like I want to self destruct but I can’t even do that successfully. I wouldn’t want to hurt the people around me anyway. Making mistakes at all, God forbid. Why is that such a big deal to me? I wonder if I’ll delete this after posting? Hm. I ask questions so I can make better choices, and less mistakes. I love truth, I find it satisfying. I like boring details, and motives and the way other people think. But what am I? Where do I fit in, in this giant world with all its people. These are my thoughts. I’m not afraid of them. Not at the moment. I have no answers. I wonder if this will make me sad tomorrow? Or maybe I’ll laugh at my stupid introspectiveness. That’s my problem, isolation. Thinking of myself, but I can’t think of anyone else so well except… and I can’t do that anymore, I should stop. At least at this frequency.
Are you enjoying your own ramblings Hannah? You sound crazy you know.
Lol yeah I know.